So, my little summary of sophomore year is done!! ^
Now let's get into life after my Numb Phase. So, I decided to go to a school that's known for being ghetto (to say the very least). It was the school that was looked down on the most, next to the school that I live right next to. Yes, I chose to go to a school on the opposite side of town, when I COULD HAVE gone to another ghetto school. But the thing is, I wanted a fresh start. If I went to the school next to my house, I would be seeing the bitches I went to elementary-middle school with, and those people are the ones I blame my anxiety, agoraphobia, and lack of self confidence on. I was bullied since 5th grade to 8th grade, mainly for my broken nose. I was NOT born with that nose though, and I didn't even find out it was broken until I went to an ear specialist.
I had to see an ear specialist when I went deaf on my right-side ear. I use my earphones to block out stuff I don't want to hear, such as my family's insults, and such. So the ear specialist had stuck something in my nostrils (some kind of weird ass doctor-y device..lol) and then he asked me if I'm having any breathing problems. I was like...uhm.. I don't know?? I never really thought about it, yknow, since I've always been like this?? He pointed out that my nose was broken and tilted more towards one side, to my left.
And then I got to thinking. When could it have been broken? 5th grade was when I started getting bullied, so I assumed that was when it happened. I remember elementary school perfectly because I never had any friends since I was so shy and quiet, and I would walk around campus by myself, where the dodgeball and handball courts were. I was so damn stupid istg. I would ALWAYS get hit in the face or on the head by a ball. I'm pretty sure it was a basketball though. A dodgeball couldn't do much, especially break my fucking nose. LOL.
Anyway... What was this post supposed to be about....??....
I hope nobody sees this, seriously. I'm so good at going off-topic... ;;
I'd like to add that I'm going to rewrite my fics, starting today. Slowly but surely!
My internet still sucks ass, but I'll do what I can. Find me on AFF: interlunar
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