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02 December 2015 @ 07:33 pm
I'll be listing these in order of popularity, but really... yall are so silent I probably got this list wrong. Lol. The titles link to the tags on my journal. Hope this helps. Also, each chapter includes the summary of the plot so I won't be including that on here.

  1. One Way Goodbye ** When got7 had first debuted... fun fact: written at 12am when I shouldve written my speech for class!

  2. Intermittent ** 2nd most popular one. DISCONTINUED

  3. CCBFE ( Cheater Cheater Best Friend Eater )

  4. No Pain, No Gain

  1. One Way Goodbye is a got7 fic, pairing: Bambam x Yugyeom.

  2. Intermittent is an EXO fic, pairing: XiuChen

  3. CCBFE is a BTS fic, pairing Vkook, and broken JinKook.

  4. No Pain, No Gain is an EXO fic, pairing: SuChen and sometimes LayChen (in flashbacks).

ALL my fics are AU and they involve angst as well as romance. I'm not good at fluff, because in general, I'm not the most affectionate person. If you'd like updates on my fics be sure to check out my links below.

Let's keep in touch:

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23 January 2017 @ 05:53 pm
for myself and anyone struggling to write again! if using one of these prompts just leave a comment.

  • "she wanted a storm to match her rage" - a feast for crows , george r. r. martin

  • don't touch my hair - solange knowles

  • my boy my town - mabel

  • cranes in the sky - solange knowles

  • "i gave you everything that every man says he wants. i cooked, i cleaned, i ironed your jeans. i was the one." - a thousand times , ella mai

  • "you can catch me in the dark of night, getting my whole life underneath the sapphire sky" - you don't know me , tinashe

  • "i'm not like someone i'm supposed to be" - company , tinashe

  • let me sleep - in which one character takes his sleep very seriously and anyone who dares to wake them up will feel their wrath

  • hair like snow - jay chou

  • "when there's no one to share with, happiness doesn't feel whole" - 一半 one half , della 丁当 (ding dang)

22 January 2017 @ 05:39 pm
* do not read this if you haven't already read every chapter in AFF: One Way Goodbye

Title: One Way Goodbye
Pairing: Bambam/Yugyeom
Rating: pg
Summary: After both men have passed away due to different reasons, what is left of Kunpimook and Yugyeom's bond?
Author's Note: I know LJ is dead and all, but since I originally posted the story here, I want to post the ending here too.

OWG: Originally written on 1/30/14.

The purpose of this fanfic was to have a main character fall in love with the other main character after they passed away. So because of that, I can't make an alternate ending.. You guys are free to write alternate endings for yourself, but with my permission of course! And once I give you permission pls give me credit. xx

A woman in her thirties with dark brown wavy hair and high cheekbones was standing in front of the two tombstones she visited every year, sometimes more often than that. As always, she shed tears as she talked to both tombstones, and held tightly onto the flowers she would leave for them.

"Hi, Kunpimook... Hi, Yugyeom... it's Fei noona here!

You two must be happy, now that you're together. I really miss you guys. I remember when we used to wait for Yugyeom to show up, and how we would brainstorm ways to make your novels popular so he could notice you..", she laughed as she remembered the most painful days of Kunpimook's life, taking a second to blow her nose. "I also remember when Yugyeom would go through your laptop, and your journals.. He was a cute one, a keeper.

You two were really something... You better wait for me, okay? I still got a long way to go, I won't rush it even though I miss you two so much.. I'll see you when I see you.."

Fei placed the flowers in front of their tombstones, centered in between the two, rubbing her round belly before waving goodbye and walking back to the parking lot. Her husband was currently at home, preparing the room for their babies. They were expecting twins and were 7 months so far. The twins would both be boys, and they already knew what names they'd choose for them. It was quite obvious.

・゜゜・ ・゜゜・. 。・゚゚・ ・゚゚・。
January 29th
Center Hospital.

Fei was currently walking down the hallway, waiting for herself to dilate more since she was supposed to go into labor today or possibly tomorrow. She was struggling to walk normally but the nurses insisted that she walk around and keep herself active. "How much longer do I have to do this?", she complained to her husband who was speaking to a nurse. He was trying to keep himself calm since most fathers tend to faint when they're having their child, as the nurse had told him.

"It's almost time, don't worry. They'll be here soon. Let's just be patient.", he said to her in his calming voice, stroking her hair as he placed a gentle kiss on her forehead.

January 30th
Center Hospital

She had just given her last push for baby number two, gasping for air as her husband stroked her sweaty hair, attempting to take loose strands away from her face so she could see their second baby. The nurse had given the first baby to her husband to hold, and gave the second baby to Fei. There were several loud cries heard in the room, echoing throughout the whole floor they were on.

January 31st
Center Hospital

The couple left the hospital with smiles on their faces. A tired Fei was placed in the wheelchair, being pushed by her husband while her parents held one baby each. Fei and her husband placed the babies in the back of the car, bidding goodbye to her parents, who would be later meeting her at home.

As they were driving home, she turned back to look at the two sleeping newborns.

I'll never leave you, little Kunpimook and little Yugyeom. I'm going to protect both of you for as long as I live.
As long as I am still on this earth, you will never feel sadness, loneliness, or heartbreak. I'll make sure of it.



You can stumble and fall, but you get up and keep running. People can pull you down, but as long you score, victory is yours to keep.

—JJ Lin

12 January 2017 @ 03:53 pm
A glimpse into Derealization disorder, written by yours truly.
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If anybody else has or thinks they have Derealization/Depersonalization disorder, I strongly suggest you do your research and know you are not alone. I am here with you, and there's several other people in the world going through your struggle. Don't isolate yourself even though its all you want to do. It will eventually stop so just keep that in mind. Surround yourself with goals and positivity and don't allow anyone's negative comments to get to you. xx
03 December 2015 @ 04:47 pm
I have some bad news for my Intermittent readers. I don't want to do this, but I also want to avoid possibly romanticizing a disability/disorder. Intermittent wasn't meant to romanticize a disability at all, but neither was Lolita, and now you see some people who romanticize the hell out of it on Tumblr, and other social media. I'm not saying my fic is going to reach Lolita popularity either lol. I'm just saying I'd like to avoid people who could make one thing seem like another thing. You get me? :")

Thanks for reading! I will be continuing my other works, but Intermittent has been suspended for good. I'm sorry for my readers who genuinely enjoyed the first angsty chapter. ;;; I hope you guys don't hate me for this, but I needed to make this decision before I started updating and then regretting the whole thing.

Have a lovely day~~

02 December 2015 @ 07:41 pm
I've decided to rewrite some of my fics because I wrote those when I was sleep deprived (maybe thats why they were so angsty...) and let's be honest, my vocabulary isn't that great. I like to keep it simple so I don't add too many adjectives or too many metaphors, run-ons, etc, in one paragraph. I really love my simple writing style, but I really want to rewrite my fics so they don't seem so tasteless. I probably won't be editing One Way Goodbye though- that's my baby. OWG is the fanfic that really changed my little author life. I still get people requesting to translate it even if it isnt popular on AFF :") I also won't be editing No Pain, No Gain much because it's already written as I wanted it to be. I'm also doing this because even I don't know what happened in the last chapters I wrote. I myself haven't caught up with my stories, and I didn't have my chapters sorted out. I didn't even stick to the plot much in a few of them. And I'm sure you can tell!

Anticipate my next update! It'll be short, but it's better than nothing at this point.

(insert kissy emojis here)
02 December 2015 @ 07:11 pm
Guess who's back?? I bet no one remembers me or even reads my fics anymore since its been like... 2 years? I remember my first fics were written out of anxiety and stress, maybe even depression back in my late sophomore year. I was going through a difficult time in my life in which I had absolutely no motivation to do my homework, go to school, and I just did not see myself getting anywhere in life. I guess you could say I was numb for an entire year, maybe even more. I didn't feel like I was myself. It was almost as if I was trapped inside my body; I had no real thoughts besides my ocd thoughts, my brain didn't absorb anything, my ears weren't listening, my eyes were not focusing. I was a complete wreck! And due to that painful year of stress and anxiety, I decided to switch schools. Early College was not meant for me, and I should have known that since the first day. It was going to be lots and lots of sleepless nights spent doing homework and preparing for presentations/speeches. I did none of those things. I stayed up ALL NIGHT AND MORNING doing nothing! I was more than likely on imvu, talking to strangers, chat websites, AFF, roleplaying!!!, and occasionally watching porn. (And if you're going to judge me, I suggest you don't because I can assure you 90% of teens either do the same thing, or worse. Insert kissy emojis here)

So, my little summary of sophomore year is done!! ^

Now let's get into life after my Numb Phase. So, I decided to go to a school that's known for being ghetto (to say the very least). It was the school that was looked down on the most, next to the school that I live right next to. Yes, I chose to go to a school on the opposite side of town, when I COULD HAVE gone to another ghetto school. But the thing is, I wanted a fresh start. If I went to the school next to my house, I would be seeing the bitches I went to elementary-middle school with, and those people are the ones I blame my anxiety, agoraphobia, and lack of self confidence on. I was bullied since 5th grade to 8th grade, mainly for my broken nose. I was NOT born with that nose though, and I didn't even find out it was broken until I went to an ear specialist.

I had to see an ear specialist when I went deaf on my right-side ear. I use my earphones to block out stuff I don't want to hear, such as my family's insults, and such. So the ear specialist had stuck something in my nostrils (some kind of weird ass doctor-y device..lol) and then he asked me if I'm having any breathing problems. I was like...uhm.. I don't know?? I never really thought about it, yknow, since I've always been like this?? He pointed out that my nose was broken and tilted more towards one side, to my left.

And then I got to thinking. When could it have been broken? 5th grade was when I started getting bullied, so I assumed that was when it happened. I remember elementary school perfectly because I never had any friends since I was so shy and quiet, and I would walk around campus by myself, where the dodgeball and handball courts were. I was so damn stupid istg. I would ALWAYS get hit in the face or on the head by a ball. I'm pretty sure it was a basketball though. A dodgeball couldn't do much, especially break my fucking nose. LOL.

Anyway... What was this post supposed to be about....??....



I hope nobody sees this, seriously. I'm so good at going off-topic... ;;

I'd like to add that I'm going to rewrite my fics, starting today. Slowly but surely!
My internet still sucks ass, but I'll do what I can. Find me on AFF: interlunar
and if you have KKT, let me know your ID so I can add you!
11 October 2015 @ 04:57 pm

Sorry. I am sosorry. I didnt mean to take a long ass unannounced hiatus from my fanfics. I started attending a different school and I'm not meeting the graduation requirements and my anxiety is all over the place !!! I'm truly sorry for my lack of self discipline. And also, my internet connection is so damn slow, and I run out of patience very easily so thats also one of my reasons for not updating. I will try my best to figure it out and finally finish ALL those fanfics. Damn.

Anyway. thank you for always supporting me!
Btw my new AFF is interlunar. I wont be going on Ramyunnie bc thats my friend's account. I'm starting over! (:


17 May 2015 @ 06:37 pm

Title: Cheater Cheater Best Friend Eater
Pairing: taekook / vkook (broken!jinkook)
Rating: R
Genre: angst
Length: tbd
Summary:Taehyung stains his relationship with lies and infidelity after confessing his sin(s) to his fiance, Jungkook. Now, Jungkook is left with doubts, insecurities, and questions. The only person who's been keeping the boy happy lately is Seokjin , who loves him, but refuses to interfere with their engagement.